ThEoRy Of FoRmS

If my memory does not fail me, I once read from a General Paper comprehension passage about how Stephen King theorizes that everyone is mad to a certain extent.  Have you ever thought or imagined about cruel and malicious methods of murdering the person whom  has in one way or another earned your hatred? Have you ever thought about doing absurd things in perfectly normal situations? Have you ever have fantasies or weird imaginations about a different kind of world we should have all lived in? Although one may not want to admit it, we are all masters at hiding all these fantasies, desires, wants and imaginations about our surrounding/people/environment. However, does that certify us as mad? Of course, we must ask ourselves first, how do you define the word ‘mad’? Flipping open my version of the Oxford advanced learners’ dictionary, the definition printed clearly states that ” Being mad is having a mind that does not work normally”. By this definition, are we not mad? Indeed, Stephen King may be right in declaring all of us as mad for we all have thoughts that are not normal and yet so well hidden. What is more significant in this revelation is that if we are mad, whatever we do and say are just plainly very well crafted ‘masks’ that hid a facade meant to deceive anyone who dares to lay their eyes on it.

One may fairly inquire that if all this is fake and so well fabricated and we are all indeed mad, why are we all not in mental institutes? My conclusion and answer to this question is that the degree of madness will decide whether you are in a mental institute or not. The second criteria to consider , definitely, is how well you can hide and control these madness. Once other people can identify that you have more of such fantasies and imagination and you cannot hide and control it, you will definitely be more likely thrown into a mental institute. In conclusion, as long as your actions and words are normal and does not cause any problems or chaos to the society, you will not be forcefully chucked into an institute for the mentally ill.

Consequently, this whole definition of madness raises another question: If madness is defined having a mind that does not work normally, then how do we define ‘normal’? Lets look at what dictionary.com defines it as. It clearly states that being normal is conforming to the common or standard type. What human traits need to conform to a “common or standard type” in order for us to be declared? I would name just the three most important. Intellectual, personality and emotional traits. Then again, can brains conform to a common or standard type? Are we capable of removing these unwanted non-standard/non-regular emotions totally from our domain? Can we standardize the varied personalities of millions of people? Absolutely not! To be able do so will be catastrophic. To be able do so will require such colossal effort. To be able to do so is as good as removing all the colors in this world except black and white. The primary reason is that all of us are unique and very different individuals.

Conclusively, I have proven that a person cannot conform and hence cannot be normal. This evidently allows us to safely deduce that all of us is mad and none of us is normal and that the reason that only certain handful group of people are only really considered ‘mad’ because they display a higher degree in madness and a greater deviation from “normalcy” which is largely due to their loss of ability to hide and control this madness.

I am sure that most of you people would agree with me that the things created and defined within the human domain are largely the work of humans. Okay fine! For the religious people, you may argue that God created us. Hence , the things created or molded by us are God’s creation. Well, lets try to keep God out of this whole issue, for if he is involved, this whole thing will only get more messy. Even if we concede that we never created anything at all,  I am still convinced we affected and defined the things around us based on what we per. The things that we perceive, define and altered are all henceforth as per what Plato said mere illusions or replicas or tokens of the real thing for if we are all mad and we had a hand in deciding or determining the final outcome to the things around us, then the things around us remain to wholly incomplete and hence not real. Even the things I am writing now are but the idea of a mad lunatic and conclusively illogical for all these ideas may be wholly tainted by some random abnormal clutter which is ever more true.

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ReFlEcTiOn

Genting escalator

Genting escalator

Flashback(4 weeks ago): Genting – Holiday

Flashback(3 weeks ago): Zhenghua Secondary School – Relief teaching

Flashback(1+ week ago): Physics teacher Mr Teh’s wake – sadness

Flashback(1 week ago): Engin Oweek

Flashback(2 days ago): High fever

Wow, how time flies? It is quite amazing that within a mere 4 weeks my emotions changed drastically. Ha! Now, it is finally time to do what I am fated to do——–> study

The soul is languishing in one corner remembering the good old days….Ha!

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ApOlOgY

I recently picked up this module in university called reason and persuasion(GEM1004) by prof. John Holbo. Do not be mistaken by the title for it is a philosophy module and definitely not entirely a module about how to convince and be convinced. For your information, I do not have any philosophy background. However, well, I thought it was kinda fun to read such a module. From the readings though which is simply inspirational and enlightening, I picked up a bit of background information on Plato and Socrates. You must be wondering now, what the hell is wrong with this guy yakking halfway through the blog post about a philosophy module which has nothing to do with the title “apology”. Well, for the seek of people who have never delved into western philosophy, apology is a dialogue of Socrates written by Plato. In essence, this dialogue shows Socrates defending against a jury trying to convict him. Well, apologia back in the old days is defined as simply as defence. Hence, my title. What am I ,as the author of this blog, defending against? Is there anybody to judge me? What crime has the author commited?

The soul is once again responsible of showing the puzzled reader the way for the soul declares the following felonies commited by the author: 1. the author had not been active and has let his faithful readers down. 2. the author had not kept his promise of constantly of producing new sections of interesting/quality reads for his readers. 3. Lack of discipline to read through his freinds’/ readers’ blogs and comments.

To be frank,  any form of explanation, defense or argument against my above crimes may seem like a mere excuse. To be precise, I really wanted to apologise for my inability to keep up with my own regime that I have promised myself and many people around me. I think action is more important than empty promises to myself or to anyone in particular. Having said that, I will work to be consistent/active and have more discipline.

The soul is sure and confident of the future as inaction is hopefully a thing of the past.

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HoLiDaY

Finally, i will be taking a well deserved break Malaysia (KL). I have decided to resign from my second job for various reasons: 1) University life is beginning. 2) Time to begin another phase of my plans. 3Time to enjoy a few days of tranquility and total rest.

The soul is relieved.

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ReCeNt AcTiViTiEs

Just an update on the changes to my blog: 1) Debates section coming up with the very first topic on legalisation of organ sales. 2) Philosophy section coming up.(Basicall its newbie and random stuff) 3) I maybe starting to write a chinese novel randomly for my own leisure. Hence, I may create another category for it.

The soul sincerely hopes that all of the above will ultimately come to fruition.

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EmOtIoNs

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Emotion: Ecstatic

After finishing a very intense round of assignments, I realised that I am very refreshed and relived that my stint is finally over and I can finally concentrate on the things that I alwasys wanted to do. The list simply goes on: Blogging, facebook, writing logs of debates I have seen, studying a bit of philosophy, understanding a bit about programming, etc, etc. So many things, so little time. The sense of lerthargy never seems to leave me as I attempt to muster strength to all these things. Even so, I can hardly contain my excitment of the things in store for me ahead. With all that in mind, I disciplined myself to head down to the library everyday to accomplish all these seemingly overbearing events on my newly acquired laptop.

The soul shirks off any complaints of fatigue as it deems it to be part of human nature to fight against such a terrible enemy that will always be at the doorstep of the determined and courageous. However, even if the tingling senses of excitement is constantly poking at the nerves,different emotions seem to merge into one and come back and haunt the soul.

Emotion: Sadness and loneliness

Indeed, I fight for a purpose that I and only I know. However, the fight as exciting as it seems is the cause of the nagging emotions of feeling both desolated and dejected. Emotions are the cause of weakness in humans as the “father”(an inhuman character fighting to be perfect in “full metal alchemist”) claims. To me, it is the source of strength nevertheless as it is only when I am weak and emotionally em-battered that I will fight to become stronger and remove these kinds of emotions. While I work hard in this direction, I will have to live with all these emotions. What I cannot comprehend until this very day is the intensity of some emotions and their duration. They bind me like a demonic contract with the devil. Years and months seem to me a joke as they mock me for I pine for the same thing. How ironic!

The soul has never been so confused this morning when it realised the stupidity of it’s actions which has all along been the motivation in life. At the same time, it refused to give up on any of it’s decisions beliving that one day it will be realized. If those dreams never ever come ture, it will proudly declare, “At least, I tried.”

Emotion: Sweetness (you know what I mean)

Last week, I dreamed about the past, the present and the future. This is the fourth time I dreamed about it in 7 years.

The soul thinks and will remember the pleasantness of these dreams.

Emotion: Euphoric (due to accomplishment)

Over the months of november 2008- June 2009, I went from being a student care teacher to reminiscing my JC experience of being a debates adjudicator to being a part time teacher at YMCA/tution teacher. A roller coaster ride indeed. Living a normal life has never been so pleasant and I would like to pay my compliments to National Service which taught me how to appreciate life and it’s beauties although some people will never be able to understand that concept. Accomplishment is ever present as I have done things that I always thought I can but never tried out.

The soul is comforted that it had attempted these things before another phase(university) in life begins.

The final combination of emotion: Mixed like a classic rojak dish. HaHa!!

In every stage of life, there is a twist, a turn and an unexpected corner or pitfall although benefits and perks are ever present as a holistic package of “the human experience”. The fact that all these emotions are present serves as a reminder that I need to push ahead with much more hard work and effort.

The soul will treasure all these emotions despite the fact that some of these memories are gloomy by nature.

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BUSY BUSY BUSY

Wow I really cant believe that whenever I wanted to blog more often and start to be consistent, I would become extremely busy. The past four weeks were over before I knew it. To be precise, everyday there is something happening at whatever time of the day. However, at some point of time , I realised that I had simply done too much and I really wanted to simply take a much needed break. However ironic it might be, the truth is that deep in my heart I know that a break is unquestionably a setback to the goals in my life. Hence, I think the only possible route is to pressure forward and plan my time more efficently so I can rest my tired body more often. I think it is also the perfect time to start thinking about setting a portion of my time to routine affairs like for example: Facebook, Blogging, exercising and reading some routine books and newspapers. Hopefully, I can enhance my life even more in the upcoming weeks.

The soul is hopeful that things will be differnt in the next couple of weeks to come and my life can be even more progressive and more dynamic than ever. SHAG!

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MeEtInGs WiTh OlD fRiEnDs

Ecclesiastes 3

A Time for Everything

1 There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under heaven:

2 a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,

3 a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,

4 a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,

5 a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain,

6 a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,

7 a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,

8 a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.

Ecclesiastes has always been my favourite book in the bible. It is because I love wisdom and this book written by Solomon himself who was granted wisdom by God. Indeed, there is a time for everything. The time came when I met with my old friends and we rejoiced. It one of the best blessings from god.

It was a series of fortunate events as I met up with friends of old and new more frequently than I have ever dream of. Very, very Old friends shared a lot with me as they have not seen me for a very long time. We talked and talked about our exploits over the past two years may it be army or studies or whatever under the sun. To have someone to listen to your complaints, your glorious adventures was indeed something welcoming and warm to the heart. I found that such times were very rare indeed.

It was difficult to express the feelings of sadness of the soul as the meeting drew to a resounding end. It was inevitable that the time to part had arrived for it was neither destiny nor fate but nature’s path that everything that has a beginning will have an end.

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PhIlOsOpHy

I have decided to create this section for leisure purposes. I lack proficiency in the use of the English language. However, this will not hamper my intentions to write on philosophy. People who are reading my works, please do not laugh at my futile attempts. Furthermore, this category is merely for maintaining a certain level of brain activity which I found out to be lost over my past two years in a military organization. On the other hand, I have always been interested in learning more about this subject. Hence, I read up on philosophy for 2 days straight in the national library using an introductory book on philosophy. To sum up my views and opinions by those previous great thinkers like Plato and Aristotle, I decided to write essays on philosophy on a weekly basis. Of course, sometimes, it can be just me yakking away about my own search for truth. =P

The soul will always be in search of the truth of knowledge itself!

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MaNgA ReAdInGs

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Recently, I managed to allow myself some free time to read manga extensively. Fortunately, I followed the recommendations and suggestions of my friends and began reading Full Metal Alchemist and Nodame Cantabile. The above two series ,as expected , depicted stories which were exciting and deep in depth.

Actually, I did watch the anime for FMA before. However, I was hardly convinced that it was a manga series worth reading for the anime version was shallow and weird in structure. On the contrary, the manga version provides the reader with a deep and refreshing insight into a fantasy story which is unrivalled by any other series for its frequent twists and smooth plot. Not only that, the author weaves “Operation Valkyrie”, “V for Vendetta” styled politics into its plot enhancing it’s ability to allow the reader to step back and re-examine the current status quo of ones societal infrastructure. There are many learning points in this wonderful story. Corruption and moral ethics in human biological research are just some of the learning points. Example, one of the key issues I took away on human biological research is not to mess within the boundaries of God himself or one will suffer his wrath.

The soul will try to keep up with change and will continue to learn from the smallest thing even during entertainment.

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